gone away

ONE.

Visit her at 8.30 in the morning (if you're not living with her)
and pull her out of bed into the kitchen. look at her morning cuteness with affection
and pour her HL milk from the fridge. SLIP your ring into the drink
and make her FINISH IT.

(no flowers. i hate flowers. okay fine, you want flowers?)

~~the end~~

as she stare at the ring(or you) with a jaw-dropping look, pull out ONE
rose from your pocket and kneel down( actually kneeling down is also a cliche.
who okay-ed kneeling to be essential in all the proposals?? so NO KNEELING!)
give her your sincere loving eyes and wait for her answer.

if its me, i'd say yes. if its some flower-loving, extravagant woman, maybe not.

TWO.

bring her camping + stargazing on a beach (of course on a non-raining season please)
before she falls asleep on your shoulder, take out the ring and
DON'T ASK "WILL YOU MARRY ME" YOU dumbass-.-
i hope i dont have to teach you how to say sweet things that is suitable there and then
but puke-inducing here. just go " will you be the one to -INSERT all your inside jokes-?"
wait for her answer:)

(note: you might triple your chance if you catch a shooting star and wish, LOL!)

if its me, I'd say yes. if its some flower-loving, extravagant woman, maybe not.

THREE

CALL 98.7 fm.
you can call the Muttons, shan and rozz, dan and young.
whoever, call and call until they pick up the phone and propose.
(well of course make sure she's tuning in la) and propose to her infront of
all the thousands of listeners in singapore, JB ~~and some say batam.~~
(okay joke is stupid-.-)

if its me, I'd say yes. if its some flower-loving, extravagant AND shy woman, maybe not.

FOUR

slip a note into the last page of the book she's reading that says

" go to the fridge"

and at the fridge place another note that says " go to your pillow"
and on the pillow place another note.

"I promise you i'll try my best to spend all my breakfast lunch and dinner with you, spend every possible sleeping moment with you.
WILL YOU BE MRS. -insert your full name-?"

plan your time properly okay.
if its me, I'd say yes. if its some flower-loving, extravagant woman, maybe not.

okay im tired, tell you the remaining 2 tmr, or not :D
(but regardless, i'll make it 6 so i can win keneth :D )

******************************

OHMYGOSHZXZXZ. cant believe i actually typed this post out.
i need to quit being the hopeless romantic because i know there would be
1000 million people rolling their eyes at me and my post.

well too bad.
but MAYBE taking a back seat from love songs and romantic comedies would be good.
i need a break. (yeah have kitkat-.-)

ohkay. player isnt working. will fix it next time! goodnight:)

p/s of course it still might not work, cuz i doubt all the guys reading this are gonna propose
to me, LOL! and even DNA test and condoms are only 90%+++ err.. i dont have a right
word for both DNA tests and condoms. so, HAVE FUN:)

love his version. ( singing starts at 56th second )

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等

她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

migraine:/

笑死人了，两个心痛的傻瓜。

this idiot above repeated one of her most common mistakes
(besides losing her wallet or thinking she did)
and that is to retard-ly bring her camera out without the memory card. AGAIN-.-
so here's a huge photo of myself to make up to you guys for the broken promise, LOL.

the weather is nice, but apparently not so at work.

Mean girls

Day 4, when i'm the only FEMALE newbie, its normal to get AIMED.
thats why gossiping is BAD, and hurtful for people like me-.-
you get sarcastic comments by FEMALE colleagues gossiping whenever you pass by,
and honestly I didn't really cared because those are not my friends.
what they think don't really matter, but I hope they know it speaks a lot
about their characters.

NICE guys

when i say nice, they are really very nice. like ben(jamin).
okay let me share something miraculous here.

day 4 of work (thurs) was horribly miserable because i got scolded 1000 million times
(shut up, i know its a billion), be it reasonable or not.
DREAD-ing work became what was left of me on friday and i prayed so hard
that Ben will be there. (he is a source of comfort because he complains with me:D )

guess what-.-
he who didn't have to work was at vivo that day.
God works in mysterious of ways, seriously.

and GUYS are not like GIRLS. they don't feel the need to BE sarcastic
and gossip, (well at least the guys there don't, thank God for that!)
they will teach you whatever you want to know, and assist you along the way.
what a comfort.

FRIENDS

day 3 at work (wed) Jacelyn said hi to me from outside and i instantly
felt homesick. you know, the kind that you get even though you go home everyday?
no one i know was at work except for a few experienced part-timers who don't really
want to return your smile or even give you a friendly/reassuring/approachable look.

AND i was so thankful of Ben because before i met him, my only drive
to go to work on Friday was because ESTHER promised to visit.
but she didnt come:( i ALMOST crumbled like a battered cookie.
:/

yes, work was THAT dreadful:(

okay i dont care if i look ugly or unflattering in that over-sized (huh, big surprise)
teeshirt-uniform anymore. JUST COME visit me plxxxxxxxxxxxxx:(

DINNER

what i look forward to every working day is dinner.
regardless of how mean the ladies are, you can finally
sit down with the nice guys and discuss our age, laugh at the seemingly old people,
and have fun while having scrumptious dinner.
that, i AM THANKFUL.
saying my silent grace everyday so sincerely felt great :)

and all week long, i've been whining to my friends.
WHERE ARE ALL THE CHRISTIAN GUYS?!
have they hidden themselves in invisible underground caves or something?!

there are so many part-timers there and I dont think there's even ONE
of them in there. all through out dinner it's just talking about DRINKING, SMOKING
and .. yes, SWEARING. actually the cursing isn't so bad, just the norm few over jokes.

waiter: Ma'am, may i help you refil your drink?
lady : BRA.
waiter: -keeps pouring water-

we laughed ourselves crazy that dinner. at least it made up for the few horrible hours
on thursday:/

-goes for dinner for 40 mins-

LANGUAGE BARRIER

the MOST irritating thing is most full-timers are malaysians.
they speak malay in front of us shamelessly and i've heard my name
a couple of times amidst the babble of malay. -smacks head-
it is ANNOYING how they LOVE to bitch IN FRONT of us.
yes, feel my frustration.

now, whenever i see restaurants (thai ones especially, oh God forbid), trays, plates
and utensils, my arms would ache. (okay they still ache from all the plate-clearing:/)
the last thing i want to see now is napkins+ice water + utensils.

but the best thing about vivo is having F21 and PAGEONE(!).
yet it is also the worst things, cuz my pay isnt due for another2-3 weeks:/

alright, enough of the complaining. I REALLY promise to do up more photos!

*****************************

NEW MOON again with Esther:D it feels awesome having a meetup.
TAYLOR LAUTNER is seriously hot. IF you still arent on TEAM JACOB after
watching the movie, GET YOUR HEAD CHECKED. hahahahahah, im nuts for him now.
he's hot. no other word left.

:D bye.

p/s there's a guy working in the restaurant called CHANG YEN.

p/s/s NEED A NEW JOB. recommendations please:)

p/s/s/s 我爱的人 - 陈晓春 stuck in my head.

anyone would be tired of being happy for 2 days, and then sinking into depression the next.
i won't care anymore. i give up.

Ah, i know. recently, POSTS have been SHORT and UNINTERESTING.

PHOTOS have been FEW.

so i promise you guys new photos tmr alright? :)

**************************************

AHA, day 2 of fasting.
Am feeling joyful.
This feeling is great.
God is great.

bye.

I called, You answered, and You came to my rescue, and I wanna be where You are.

I am so upset i can cry now.

i dont care if i am suppose to forgive.
i already did, but the apology never came.

I hate it when people always THINK they are right.
totally justified right?

shit, this is such a mess when all along i've been pretending
nothing's wrong, that its alright.
that i want time to wash things away.

'cept its not.
freaking not.

:(
-deleted- nvm, nvm, what CHANGE does that make?
no point, no point at all. its not like the conversation topic didnt crop up for the MILLIONTH time.
im tired of waiting even though im told theres no hope. the meat will never change to vegetable.

Amen to that.
I am SO SO SO SO thankful for my friends:)

i.. TRIMMED my hair today. with my brother's gf. LOL.

thats all i did for today, so... come back in 2 days.
might have photos.
(shit, im gonna lose all my readers at this rate-.-)

alex ng is so cute:D

now playing :
The words i would say - Sidewalk Prophets
At the cross - Hillsong.

this is baby Alex :D (not so crazy about the name cuz Ben sounds nicer!)
i really think all babies look alike. I mean for the first few weeks la.

bryan and his heartbreaking smile, LOL!
dont you think so!?

movie date on friday with Maybelline, Peisan, Josh(cut off, too bad:D), daniel.
Louisse was just an extra who met us before and after the movie.

NewMoon was :D besides the live commentary beside my ear by a HUGE
Anti-TeamJacob fan-.- haha GUESS WHO.

and saturday had Just Married, Just Kidding clique breakfast :D
(yes, we're sticking to this one until we get a better one-,-)

so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
like AhYee, like nephew :D

P/S i actually forgot i wanted to music-fast this week. NEVERMIND i'll start tmr-.-

photos are worth a thousand words.
and the hotness is searing my blog, i know.
so 'nuff said.

TEAM JACOB!!
SHE'S also crazy over T.L:D

p/s photos tmr, or monday. WE'LL SEE :)

p/s/s im so in love with Just Married, Just Kidding?
(LOL, no its not a band, details tmr, or monday! )

AH HOTNESSSSSSSSSS.

old photo, if you've been reading.
yes, gone are the museum days:(
my FREE Museum Pass has recently expired:(
but nonetheless, thank you PASS for giving such a wonderful museum experience:)
and THANK YOU sister for giving it to me :D

(ohoh! im going over to see the baby tmr! expect photos!)

sidetrack: i just explained ONE WHOLE chunk to Keneth why most guys have a soft
spot for JOLYN. LOLs, BECAUSE he said

Keneth. says:
*jolyn that one is call cute.

-sighs-
(im not jealous or anything, just so you're clear)
but I SERIOUSLY think its funny to point of WOAHness how guys just ADORE her so much.
she is so gentleeeeeeeeee and dependent.
if those 2 things are the criteria for choosing girlfriends to guys, then i think im gonna
remain an old spinster for the rest of my cat-ful life.

hah,
dont take offense Jolynny,
you know how much in love i am with euuzx:)

ALRIGHT. goodnights people. I LOVE YOU GUYS
( sorry, late night highness, but its true, i do love guys. LOL)

p/s speaking of being in love, i am still very much in love with my black ballet flats.
whenever i pass by it in the house, it would catch my heart and i will look at it
with goo-goo eyes.

p/s/s YES, i hope you realise i wont be blogging ANYMORE because im gonna
get murdered tmr. by Jolyn AND keneth. with a spoon. (LOL that vid was retarded.)

晚安 !

this is switzerland, and im guessing its around 5 -6 pm,
telling you that shops would be closed.
the church bell is LOUD:)
(pardon me, im not so good a video-photographer)

************************************

i know there isnt any photos but there MIGHT be some tmr!
yes, i dont have work today, as you might have realised.
Actually i dont have work for the rest of the week:D

i dont know what came over me yesterday, but WORK WAS FUN! :D
i enjoyed the company, even though Esther wasnt there (she had off day-.-)
FUN PEOPLE!
but....

1. I POURED PINK CHENDOL ON A FELLOW WAITRESS.

gosh, it was... embarrassing. i apologised to her like a million times.
but thank God it was chendol, and we wearing not-very-absorbable shirts and pants.

2. I HAD MY FIRST DIFFICULT CUSTOMER.

He (i think) was an Interracial baby. mygoodness was he CUTE!
cute to the point i had to back-face the crowd and do a silent squeal.
LOLs, much to the amusement of my colleagues.. haha:)

well, the restaurant isn't so bad. They play Joanna Wang.

p/s CANT WAIT FOR SATURDAY!
( we should give ourselves a clique name or something-.-, for easy reference you know?)

p/s/s

Dear Alan,
this is to make up for not mentioning you in my Confession post.
Thank you for being the reliable brother whom i will always seek out for,
in times of trouble, or when i need spiritual counseling and advice.
(yes, i got it. No more SC, only Alan)
i always feel so uplifted after your encouragements,
so THANK YOU very very much:)
You are a friend i would like to keep for a very long time,
so i will always remember your number, 999.
:D

p/s/s/s dont worry! i'll tell the whole world about your embarrassing dream!

now playing :
Running away - Midnight Hour
First of the gang to die(cover) - Zee Avi

great... just great.

yesterday was my first day of work.
in about an hour i'll be leaving for my second day of work.

I am dreading it.

why? cuz Esther was transfered to the somerset branch and i'll
be stuck in this vivo branch with some not so nice people.
okay maybe its just one person.

its abit ... spoilt to be thinking about quitting after working for 1 day,
but i really dislike the working hours. 5.30pm to 10.30 pm
its ... just... i feel very detached from my friends, who are all
working day shifts:(

oh manzxz.

working night shifts will stop me from blogging very often too,
and i dont think you'd like that:/
plus the FnB business isnt exactly the easiest thing alive.
oh wells, nevermind i'll go and pray now.
maybe something will pop up.

bye people..
see you in..................................................

I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA.

wth.

I LOVE this song, not so much for the song itself,
but because every time i hear it, i am reminded of Prom.
I love Prom. I love the people who surrounded me that day,
so many of them, i love.

its a very complex feeling, mixed together by all sorts of emotions that i have no name for,
but listening to the song makes me happy, because of the images that would
appear whenever black eyed peas go "i gotta feeling, that tonight's gonna be a good night."

(no offense to lower-sec friends but) i think the last 2 years in my
secondary school life (urgh, SSL is cliche but im not in the mood to rephrase)

were when i had the most fun. i found friends that i want to keep for life,
i built up bonds with the least-imaginable people. I was happy.

so thank you friends, it is you who had given me so many wonderful
memories, for me to keep in heart for years to come:)

p/s TMR'S SUNDAY! the cute notebooks are arriving! :D
LOL, im not that materialistic la, so.. THE BRINGER of the notebooks
are coming back! or maybe if there isnt notebooks, then the bringer of cute
things are coming back! LOL, im babbling. you wont get me.

p/s/s ah, i didnt call my sis today-.-

Hey guys,

hm, let me tell you something.
Every single choir member would have remembered something that our conductress
had said before. If a performance is touching, you would feel goosebumps.
I'm not sure if i have posted this girl's video before (i think i have) but
i REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT YOU to watch this!
This is not the best video. the best video is one when she sang this song
in Oprah. its so powerful, but too sad to say that the video wasnt allow to be
embedded. heres the link! go watch it! JUST CLICK!

YOU.WONT. REGRET.IT
but if you're too lazy to click, heres another one from another tv channel.
this isnt that powerful but still amazing nonetheless. ENJOY:)

********************************

NEW SHOES! they're so awesome i had to blog about it!
the soft stretchy satin-like material that are so comfortable!!
great for my job! :D

i feel like im advertising for Giovanna/Vana/ MADABOUTSHOES
but its really awesome. Found it at westmall but they didnt have my size,
so i trained down to the Admiralty store today to get it :D

and then went on to Jurong for my usual library trip.
thats all for tonight, people:)

WOOOOO, happy feet.

p/s GO AND WATCH HER!!! HERE!

pancakes and post-it notes, reminds me of kenethtan.

“ Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met.
— (via pickmeadaisy)

Look up

I can assure you, SINGAPORE IS SMALL.

remember the day i went job-hunting with Jacelyn and how we miraculously
met Esther and Jolyn in the middle of VIVO ( we got lost:/ ) at lunch time?

well, as i was out shopping for my job attire at Causeway today with mom, we met
Jacelyn Jolyn and Alan (sakae:/) it did make my day! besides the part
when i realised those glossy black pants were only 20 dollars. LOLs.

okay that is naggy-.-
i dont feel like blogging, so come back tmr night!
大家晚安!

p/s NOTE TO SELF: CALL SISTER TMR!!

p/s/s SHE DELIVERED (on tues) ! its a boy, as per usual-.- but its a boy! :D

now playing :

Quelqu'un m'a dit (Someone told me) - Carla Bruni
this is a french song! and yes, Carla Bruni is the First lady of France :D

Please please please let me get what i want - Smiths.

both from (500) days of summer soundtrack,
which i've been listening all these nights:)
ty BFF for the CD :)

Translation of Quelqu'un m'a dit (Someone told me) lyrics:
(PRETTY!)

Someone told me our lives aren't worth much
They pass in an instant like the fading of roses
Someone told me that the time that slides is a bastard
That he makes coats of our sorrows
And yet, someone told me...

That you still love me,
Someone told me that you still love me
Is it possible?

Someone told me that destiny mocks us
That it gives us nothing and promises us everything
It seems that happiness is within arm's reach
But when we stretch out our hand, we find ourselves crazy
And yet, someone told me...

Refrain

But who told me that you still love me?
I don't remember anymore, it was late in the night,
I still hear the voice, but I don't see the features
"He loves you, it's a secret, don't tell him that I told you"
You see, someone told me...

That you still love me, someone really told me...
That you still love me, is it possible?

I always thought, if a person makes you want to swear
every time he/she opens his/her mouth, you should leave this
person as far as possible.

sadly, i think im stuck for another good 20 years.

潘老师 got married yesterday! watch the video here
gah. its was so sweet i can die.

ME AND JACELYN went job-hunting today.
Guess who we saw (who were also job-hunting)?
Jolyn and Esther.
the kind of coincidence is shocking...

esther so prettyyyyyyy :D
WE'RE ON OUR WAY TO IKEA!

I love this kinda shots. even though their messy, i see the beauty in it.

act cute!

hah, look at her face! pure bliss!

i like this pillowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
but its like 19 dollars-.-

nice right?

playing with the shower screen :)

Jacelyn and Esther said that this is something ________ would do.
haha, i find it very very heartwarming:) in a way la.

pillowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww:/

i love these 2 art pieces!:D

this goon bought 2 green pillows that were supposedly for her dog.

blur pic. 1

blur pic 2.

the reason why i posted these 2 photos is, even though they're blur,
you can almost feel me radiating happiness from the photos. (i look like i have bangs:/)
:D Ikea is awesome, the entire home-y feel.
if it werent for the pain my pumps were causing me, i would have
enjoyed the whole time i was there ten thousand times better:/

i RE-ENACTED the scenes from (500) days of summer, and
they just rolled their eyes about 500 times.

okay. FAIL. we'll just leave such photos to Keneth.
not my style, and i cant do a good job too:/

Jacelynny :)

well, sweet dreams:)

p/s getting my book tmr! shae's coming.

p/s/s hope we all get the job @ Thai Accent.

someday, i'll set up a happy family with a wonderful someone.
We'll go Ikea to shop for our new home, and by that time,
i can be easily the happiest person around. I cannot wait for that:)

I bought a friendship band for myself today, to make up for the lost one.
Im pretty sure there will be MUCH MORE to come. I just love them!
but... this one's

TOO short for my ankle,
TOO thin for my stick-of-a-wrist.

so it became a ring :D

Im spending pretty much everyday with jacelyn,
that darling:)

- INSERTS A BIGASS PHOTO OF JACELYN.L.S.L-

dont blame me, i have been forgetting to bring my camera out.
rare i know, but photos will be coming this way VERY SOON:)

the Angels gave God this.
I am a special order.
You see all my physical flaws here, love it, or leave it.

you know what? i think i just leveled up to Graceful-bhb-er.
:D

do you know her name is 洪佩珊(but having 佩 with 王字边)?
good. hanyupinyin is HONG PEI SHAN.
pronounce properly next time you call her okay?
LOL. im high already, because...

kellie helped me get this at borders.
my emotions today have been ranging from happy to
very VERY VERY VERY ECSTATIC! :D

books, my kind of heroine. (okay thats very cliche, but high peope dont care!)

by some sheer luck i would have gotten a job by tmr,
because apparently SOMEONE is leaving for japan and wont be back
until sunday. ahhhhhhhhhhhh, cant wait for his return.
(not because i'll miss him but because of the pretty things he'll bring back:D)

-emos-

all my msn buddies will all be away, until thursday when SOMEONE
comes back again. -sighs-

p/s Thank you God for these BOLD people you showered unto me in my life:)

p/s/s 1 corinthian verses are so long, i wonder who would have so much
heart to memorise them, hmm.
:D

now playing :
Please dont tell her -Jason Mraz
Plane - Jason Mraz

Semi Acapella LOLs.

Instead of cheering Jacelyn up, i got the emo bug-.-
so, Dearest bible came home today, but i have got this dreadful feeling.
Let me explain. Its the kind of feeling i would experience whenever i visit
my God-mom or my sister, and its time to leave for home.

Dread. yeah thats just it.
but nevermind, tomorrow I'll start afresh, keeping my priorities in check.

AND i painted Jacelyn's nails pink.
After i washed off my dark blue nail polish, i felt so.. final.
its like i had it for prom, now prom's over:(
so many images are stuck in my head now.
i have to go, enjoy the song:)

credits to EAD WINE

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE GET MARRIED?

(and invite me)

I am dying from the lack of weddings.

moral of the day:

there's a reason why this book's author is a nobel prize winner.
its good.

mom dragged me to see the traditional chinese medicine doctor again-.-
i actually have to swallow 8 pills every afternoon (along with this horrible
powder in the morning, and again like 500 pills at night-.-)

the most horrible thing here is, THE MOMENT you put it in your mouth,
they melt before you can even gulp them down with water.
and then they might get stuck in your throat and make you gag.

T.T

i hate medicine.

the book is HUGE, but look how happy it made me :D
(spot my black nails!)
yep, and for the tenth thousand time i've mention,
my idea of Heaven on Earth is just a comfy couch, stereo,
an endless book and.... greentea.
:)

meeting darling Jacelyn tmr! cant wait:D

p/s gahhhhh, i miss esther wee. shall call her tmr!

I am so melodramatic below-.-
but just hear me whine.

taking deep breaths all day long.

beautiful song. beautiful lyrics.

I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay
True, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death
When you are out there on the road for
Several weeks of shows and when you scan
The radio, I hope this song will guide you home

As you might tell from all the crap posts these days, i am not feeling good, at all.
Moping around would be the exact words im feeling now, because there
had been major major changes in my life that needs time getting used to.
they are the best i could hope for, but still... it aches.

nevermind, some get it, some dont.
The point here is, everything else adds up,
and here i am in the mode of dry-bone-ness, according to Jacelyn.
Basically its just a period of time when i am rejecting God.
out of my entire system. YES I KNOW, ITS THAT BAD.
i just... feel so drained that i dont have the motivation to seek Him.
i dont want this to happen, but i really cant help it, so please,
DO ME A FAVOUR, and pray for me :(
maybe i'll feel better if i get my bible back from Jacelyn, but
cheanpin is a sad sad person now:(

-EMOs-

I've said a lot, but there's still so much left unsaid,
and now i dont even know if i can say it out anymore..

p/s its really pay back time, im sure of it now.

like i've said, Melodramatic. but who cares-.-

I GAVE THE WRONG LINK FOR PROM PHOTOS.
here they are:)

Happy endings come in different forms:)

today jacelynny came over for movie marathon.

HJ to Jacelyn :

You and Chean Pin are like a compound.
You cant separate them by physical means :D

we had fun, talked about lots of things.
(okay its just mainly 1 thing but yeah...)
:)
i love Jacelynny except everyones going somewhere else:(
PJC, and im probably NP and apparently someone ELSE is going SIM or SMU
or something cant remember but still..... saddening.

wells. its a boring life, BYE.

Dr. Suess says Dont cry because its over, smile because it happened.
regardless of everything, you'll still be my prettiest friend:)
cant wait to see you in 5 years<3

Found this in a friend's friend's friend's blog.
doesnt make it any less true.

Staying with someone you really love even if you know you two can't be together for a lot of reasons is like standing under the rain. It feels good but you know it will soon make you sick

you didnt even try.
after i gave a second chance.
you didnt even try.

why cant you try?

you're the hugest idiot in the wide UNIVERSE, you know that?

damn it, i wanted it so bad.
but you threw that right away.
this is not an effing sacrifice because i wont be getting any better.

i am
now munching on chocolates.
in this
cold cool weather.

listening to that couple.
the telly.
those shouts of desperateness,for
her man.

while sitting alone,solemned,
attempt to create a moment,
of solitary lonesome.

in this,
big empty room.
in the midst of
glaring brightness,
and the dim skyline
outside,
this bare shell.

- 14 march '09, http://walking-thesunshinestreet.blogspot.com

LOL, its the same kind of weather, except im eating pizza
and watching House on tv. The woman's heart just stopped beating.

Jamie (L) Prom. says:
inside my prom.
brain*
Keneth. says:
-.-
Jamie (L) Prom. says:
OMG too much of it already-.-
die

Today is stay home, snuggle in bed and talk on the phone all day DAY!

SERIOUSLY, about 4 hours of phone talking to 2 darlings:)
but after so much talking, i still have to answer to God at the end.
i can't block Him out like how i want to ( for like a day la).
He is and will always be priority, theres no question about it.
Regardless, i am thankful for the past 4 years, people
who had come and gone, and the rest who are here to stay.

i think its a wrong move to ask you to come online for me.
because after this, i will start the whole
checking-msn-every-five-minutes-and-get-disappointed-so-i'll-restrain-
myself-from-checking kinda thing. which is horrible.
this is horrible.

You say some people are easy to love, some people are hard to love.
But at the end, the moment you loved, you just cant get out.
From then on, it'll be like a ping pong game, i hurt and you hurt,
so i'll hurt twice over, until someone dies.

(in random order)

jolyn ng ling min.

leeliying:)

5 of us!
(from left to right): jessie, esther, jacelyn, me, jolyn.

huiwen!

limshiyuan:)

shreya:D

jacelynnylimsehlok!

maybelline.

alansenggggggggggggg.

keneth tanweirong:)

sighs, i cant believe this is over.
over. OVER. 4 years. OVERRRRRRRRRRRRR.
:( i am depressed that it is over.
so many people, so many great people, so many loving people,
so many lovable people :(

i'll miss you guys, a lot.

2006-2009, all the bitter, sweet or sour memories, its all in me now.

CLICK HERE to view all my prom photos:)

In case you didnt catch my answer after i put down your phone,
it was " I know "

you must know that its a mutual feeling.

ON the TRAIN.

we were at the bus stop and the sky wouldnt stop threatening to fall.

esther :D

if BBQ is anything other than a BBQ, its a fanning game.

:D but sadly i didnt eat much:/

we were going to the beach.
i couldnt stop staring at Josh's loafers, they're such lustful items -shakes head-

PRETTTTTTTTTY. SERIOUSLY. jolyn brought along jeremy's guitar,
so while enjoying the night breeze, the sea, there were still music and me! :D

jolyn's flipflops.

while i went bathing they played with my star plushie and my camera, LOL.
(sidetrack: i left that plushie in chalet because it was hidden on the bed, which
jacelyn jolyn florence were sleeping on. at 3.30 am on the last day, we decided
to sleep for one hour, and since all the pillows were used up, i had to search
for the plushie and jessie reached into the crack of the 2 beds... which
jolyn was sleeping on. it was a very awkward sight and we kept giggling
about it, LOL. in the end i didnt get it-.-)

guess where we are?
AT BUDDYS, after church:D
sermon was powerful that day man :)

pig.hahahah.

yep, at 3.30 we were playing uno stacko, and decided to do this
thing for mabel:)

sorry sunthar, the picture quality was so bad because it was dark
and you were dark (:/) and so i had to edit it . haha:)

i look silly in that fringe haha:D

here it is, THE MABEL PROJECT:

enjoy:)
anyway i said the date wrongly, it should be 15th NOV:D

i love chalet you know? it gives us so much more memories for
keep-sake. every single moment i enjoyed it, because of the company.
i think the taps might start running again tmr, the moment it dawn
on me that i cant keep everyone with me any longer:(
its tomorrow, can you believe it?
No words have been invented to explain how feel about these people.
the affection ... everything.
:( but im glad we had chalet:)

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SWENSENS :)

WE HAD 2 of this, and as usual, we did the whole cherry-stalk-tying thing.
:( i kinda failed,cuz the knot opened up.

click here and HERE to watch me tie my cherry stalk:D

AHAHAHAHA, it comes in guy version too , AHAHAHAHAH.
the joke can never get old, haha:)

blame jolyn for playing it 100000 times in chalet. enjoy:)

i can't grasp that Chalet had ended :(
Im still dis-orientated and tired, but happy anyway,
so Come back tmr! i'll be done with my post :)

sighs.....

now playing :
You and Me - Lifehouse
White Horse - taylor swift.
Hero - Regina Spektor

You and Me - lifehouse

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I cant keep up and I cant back down
Ive been losing so much time

Cuz its you and me
And all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And its you and me
And all other people
And I dont know why
I cant keep my eyes off of you

What are the things That I want to say
Just arent coming out right
And tripping on words
You got my head spinning
I dont know where to go from here

Cuz its you and me
And all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And its you and me
And all other people
And I dont know why
I cant keep my eyes off of you

Something about you now
That I cant quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cuz its you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And its you and me and all of the people
And I dont know why
I cant keep my eyes off of you and me
And all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And its you and me and all other people
And I dont know why
I cant keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

White Horse - Taylor Swift.

So you're sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
And I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
And days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known

[Chorus]
I'm not a princes, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one to sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your White Horse, to come around

Baby I was naive,
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know

[ White Horse lyrics from http://www.lyricsyoulove.com/ ] [Chorus]
I'm not a princes, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one to sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

Here you are your sitting there
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm sooo sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone somewhere who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappears now
Now its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late
To catch me now

Hey guys,
you might know that im going off to chalet tmr,
all the way til sunday.

and im off to malaysia from sunday to monday.
and then we have PROM on tuesday.

so... You MIGHT see this post staying here all the way til wednesday.
Or i might come in again in chalet.
take care people.

-deleted-
sighs, like i always say, nothing good ever comes
out of flaming. forget it. I lost my last chance,
and that might just mean im not the one after all.
bye.

BLASTed (500) days soundtrack this morning!

no. 1 song playing(here):

sweet disposition
never too soon
oh reckless abandon
like no one’s
watching you

a moment, a love
a dream aloud
a kiss, a cry
our rights, our wrongs
a moment, a love
a dream aloud
a moment, a love
a dream aloud

chorus:
so stay there
cause i’ll be comin over
and while our bloods still young
it’s so young
it runs
and we won’t stop til it’s over
won’t stop to surrender

songs
of desperation
I
played them for you
a moment, a love
a dream aloud
a kiss, a cry
our rights, our wrongs
a moment, a love
a dream, aloud
a moment, a love
a dream aloud

2nd song playing :

You make my dreams

What I want, you've got
But it might be hard to handle
Like the flame that burns the candle
The candle feeds the flame yeah yeah
What I got -- full stock of thoughts and dreams that scatter
And you pull them all together
And how I can't explain oh yeah
Well well you (ooh ooh ooh ooh) you make my dreams come true (you you) you
(you you)
Well well well you (ooh ooh ooh ooh) oh yeah you make my dreams come true
(ooh oooh ooh ooh) hell yeah
On a night when bad dreams become a screamer
When they're messin' with a dreamer
I can laugh it in the face
Twist and shout my way out
And wrap yourself around me
'Cause I ain't the way you found me
And I'll never be the same oh yeah
Well 'cause You (ooh ooh ooh ooh) hmmm hmm you make my dreams come true (you
you you you) oh yeah
Well well well you (ooh ooh ooh ooh) ooh you make my dreams come true (you
you you you) oh yeah
Listen to this
I'm down on my daydream
All that sleepwalk should be over by now
I know
Well you hell yeah you make my dreams come true (you you you you) oh yeah
(you you)
I've been waiting for waiting for you girl (ooh ooh ooh ooh)
Oh yeah you make my dreams come true (you you you you)
Me you me and you
I've been waiting for waiting for you girl (ooh ooh ooh ooh) all my life
You make my dreams come true (you you) whoa (you you)
Whoa whoa I've been waiting for waiting for waiting for waiting for waiting
for waiting for waiting for
(You make my dreams) ooh ooh ooh ooh
I've been waiting for you girl (you you you you)
(You make my dream you you you you)

3rd song playing (Tom Hansen sang it in the movie though. cuter :D )

Here comes your man

Outside there's a box car waiting
Outside the family stew ew ew ew
Outside the fire breathing
Outside we wait 'til face turns blue

I know the nervous walking
I know the dirty beard hang hang hangs
Out by the box car waiting
Take me away to nowhere plains
There is a wait so long (so long, so long)
You'll never wait so long....

Chorus
Here comes your man
Here comes your man
Here comes your man an an
Here comes your man

Big shake on the box car moving
Big shake to the land that's falling down
is a wind makes a palm stop blowing
a big, big stone fall and break my crown
There is a wait so long (so long, so long)
You'll never wait so long....

Chorus

Hey, here's your man
Here comes your man
Here comes your man an an
Here comes your man

Here he comes
Here comes your man an an an an
Here comes your man

Here comes your man
Here come your man
Here he comes, your man
Well, here comes your man
Hey, here's your man
Here he comes

4th song :

Hero (emo song, LOL)

He never ever saw it coming at all
He never ever saw it coming at all
He never ever saw it coming at all

It's al-right, it's al-right, it's al-right, it's al-right
It's al-right, it's al-right, it's al-right

Hey, open wide here comes original sin
Hey, open wide here comes original sin
Hey, open wide here comes original sin

It's al-right, it's al-right, it's al-right, it's al-right
It's al-right, it's al-right, it's al-right
It's al-right, it's al-right, it's al-right

No one's got it all
No one's got it all
No one's got it all

Power to the people
We don't want it
We want pleasure
And the T.V.s try to rape us
And I guess that they're succeeding
Now we're going to these meetings
But we're not doin' any meetin'
And we're trying to be faithful but we're cheatin', cheatin', cheatin'

Hey, open wide here comes original sin
Hey, open wide here comes original sin
Hey, open wide here comes original sin

It's al-right, it's al-right, it's al-right, it's al-right
It's al-right, it's al-right, it's al-right
It's al-right, it's al-right, it's al-right

No one's got it all
No one's got it all
No one's got it all

Power to the people
We don't want it
We want pleasure
And the T.V.s try to rape us
And I guess that they're succeeding
And we're going to these meetings
But we're not doin' any meetin'
And we're trying to be faithful but we're cheatin', cheatin', cheatin'

I'm the hero of the story
Don't need to be saved
I'm the hero of the story
Don't need to be saved
I'm the hero of the story
Don't need to be saved
I'm the hero of the story
Don't need to be saved

It's al-right, it's al-right, it's al-right, it's al-right
It's al-right, it's al-right, it's al-right
It's al-right, it's al-right, it's al-right
It's al-right, it's al-right, it's al-right

No one's got it all
No one's got it all
No one's got it all

enjoy:)

OMG i came online to blog about this because i forgot!

I THREW AWAY THAT DAMNED

NOTEBOOK THAT EVERYONE USED TO READ.

I THREW IT AWAY! okay fine i recycled but still Yayyyyy.

Shicheng will be so proud of me.

yay:D

you know why we have 5 fingernails and bored has 5 alphabets?
so that we can do this during our Higher Chinese paper..

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LOL.
so today i wanted to do something constructive..

PILE ONE.

PILE 2

yep, 4 years of worksheets.
our teachers efforts had benefited me, and now?
its going to be recycled into finer things:D

i spent half an hour on it, and got rashes all over ... -scratch scratch-
but still.. sense of accomplishment, yeah? :D
Have you received the recycling bags ?

ooh, this is my collage :D

meanwhile, just to backtracked A LOT,
my sister once brought me to a Macdonalds colouring contest
and i didnt win because the kid who won cheated.
His parents coloured it for him, LOL.
yep, sister was grumbling :D

I REMEMBER OKAY :D
pretty memories:)

okay i really really just like this trailer a lot. am i Obsessed?
and i know every single word in this video. The song she sang
got stuck in my head........

p/s i love it when my mom sings whenever she hears oldies on the tv.
it just means she's in a happy mood even though she cant sing for nuts :D

p/s/s TMR morning! i'll blast (500) days soundtrack on the stereo<3

I like glitter and sparkely dress, but I'm not gonna talk about that
In my monologue
I like baking and things that smell like winter but I'm not gonna talk about that
In my monologue
La la la la la la
I like writing songs about douche bags who cheat on me but I'm not gonna say that
In my Monologue
I like writing their names in songs so they're a shame to go in public
But I'm not gonna say that
In my monologue
La la la la la lala la laa
This is my musical monologue
You might think I'd bring up Joe, the guy who broke up with me over the phone but I'm not gonna mention him
In my monologue
HEY JOE, I'm doin' real well, hosting SNL,but i'm not gonna brag about that in my monologue.
la ha ha ha
And if you're wondering if I might be dating that werewolf in Twilight
I'm not gonna comment on that
In my monologue
La la la la la la
This is, my musical monologue
Might be expecting me to say
Something bad about Kanye
And how he ran up on the stage
And ruined my VMA monologue
But there's nothing more to say
Everything's okay
I've got security lining the stage
In my SNL(?) Monologue
Lala la la la la laaa
This is my SNL monologue
Lalalalalalala
That was my SNL monologue

haha, moo watched (500) days with me today.
-sighs- im really troubled, but my girls aren't online for me to rant.
so ... bye.

p/s enjoy the song:) its not gonna be here in the morning.

i just wish we could talk more often than these days (which is ~~close to~~ never?)
because i know i need that normality to feel right. All the tensions making me
think and drift far.

FAVOURITE PHRASES from (500) days

Tom: Darling. I don't know how to tell you this, but there's a Chinese family in our bathroom.

LOL, they were in ikea, pretending they were at home.

Summer: We've been like Sid and Nancy for months now.
Tom: Summer, Sid stabbed Nancy, seven times with a kitchen knife, I mean we have some disagreements but I hardly think I'm Sid Vicious.
Summer: No I'm Sid.
Tom: Oh, so I'm Nancy...

gah, day 280, .... very very sad.

Rachel Hansen: You know, all my friends love you and think you're great. It's like they say, there's plenty of fish in the sea.
Tom: [Looks at a group of twelve year old girls who wave at him and giggle] Those aren't fish. They're guppies.

Rachel Hansen: Better that you find this out now before you come home and find her in bed with Lars from Norway.
Tom: Who's Lars from Norway?
Rachel Hansen: He's some guy she met at the gym with Brad Pitt's face and Jesus' abs.

LOLOLOL, this made me laughed like crap.

Tom: Paul, seriously...
Paul: Did you bang her?
Tom: No!
Paul: Blow job?
Tom: No!
Paul: Hand job?
Tom: No, Paul, no jobs. I'm still unemployed. We just kissed.

haha, somewhat crude, but FUNNY!!

Narrator: This is a story of boy meets girl. The boy, Tom Hansen of Margate, New Jersey, grew up believing that he'd never truly be happy until the day he met the one. This belief stemmed from early exposure to sad British pop music and a total mis-reading of the movie 'The Graduate'. The girl, Summer Finn of Shinnecock, Michigan, did not share this belief. Since the disintegration of her parent's marriage she'd only love two things. The first was her long dark hair. The second was how easily she could cut it off and not feel a thing. Tom meets Summer on January 8th. He knows almost immediately she is who he has been searching for. This is a story of boy meets girl, but you should know upfront, this is not a love story.

i love this movie to bits.

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i love babyblues comic.
click on the picture if you cant read it properly :)

well. yes.
i am bored.
very very bored in fact.

All through shoe shopping today,
i keep praying silently for God to bring me to the right shoe store
to get the right pair of heels,
amidst the ten thousand million one of them in Jurong Point.
i found it, it was perfect.
but my conscience held me back.

Am i really going to wear a 3 inch heel to prom?

i cant remember the last time i made a decision based on people's feelings,
but today, i felt a strong emotion and a voice asking me
"Are you sure you want to do things just for yourself ?"
just when i thought i got it, i had to painfully walk away in search for
something shorter.

ah, sweet 1.5 inch heels.
but the fact that i had painstakingly combed through the entire of JP1 and JP2,
braving the throngs of screaming Aunties who were waiting for watch 比利 on
stage, (okay fine, im exaggerating but you know how they are)
finally finding that 1 pair of shoes, only to have to walk away,
because of God-knows-what-reason (like literally la, he knows.)
is simply suicidal.

urghhhhhhhhhhhhh.
its the WOES all over again, when you realised who is copying who,
and who stole who's ideas, and then finally,
me, losing all my sense of security because im gonna look plain
beside all my friends regardless of whatever.

i just...
can't keep up with the vanity (not the bad kind, but yeah, ) anymore.
now i feel like i just want to throw away every single prom-related thing,
get it over and done with.
talk about overload, seriously.

the months of worrying over the dress,
the accessories, makeup, hairdo, shoe,
oh Heaven forbid we have another dinner in the next 5 years.
i think i kinda had enough of preparation work to last me a whole decade-.-
(The star of your Wedding is you, so you dont have to worry about
being outshine-d. thats the beauty of weddings :D you gotta love 'em )

i swear, guys just have it SOOOOOO easy.

now, when we finish our last papers,
all we have to do is to wait for that accursed day to come...
and we can let sweet freedom embrace us like a pair of long-lost lovers.
-looks afar-

the last line is so melodramatic-.-
okayimsosleepyimgonnagosleepnow, nights.

p/s crap, bad haircut. this is why you should never never let your mom
cut your hair at home without looking at the mirror, even though
she's a hair stylist and its only fringe. UNLESS you're 3 and below that is...

p/s/s i cant believe im gonna look plain. I cant believe i stop believing
in subtlety. wait, i never believed it at all, i was only comforting myself-.-

p/s/s/s gah, this is long, would you read?

p/s/s/s/s THURSDAY! and these are the songs i look forward to listen :D

shadow of the day - Linkin Park
Nine in the afternoon(acoustic) - Panic at the disco.
Rainbow Connection - Jason Mraz
Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol
I'll do anything - Jason Mraz
Please dont tell her - Jason Mraz
0% interest - Jason Mraz
1000 things - Jason Mraz
live high - Jason Mraz
plane - Jason Mraz
Sweet Deposition - The temper trap (500 days soundtrack song)
till we aint strangers anymore - BonJovi, Leann Rimes
what a catch, donnie - fallout boy
wonderwall - Oasis
You and Me - lifehouse
you wanna make a memory - BonJOvi
上五楼的快活 - 陈奕迅
25 minutes - Michael Learns to rock.